Steps of a PTSD Attack: Him — Journal Entries 2023
• Your personal preference is interfering with someone’s life—overthinks. • Flap those wings, as if you’re the greatest of them all—the ego reminder. • The silent storm—the brain begins to overthink. • Breaks down: freezes, shakes, and walks away. • In…
P.P.T. — Journal Entries 2023
He sees the fictional stories felt from his people, places, and things. Shaking body, rushing through his tasks while outside his safe space. He sees the fictional sorrows that want to be told to him. He just wishes for nonfiction sorrows instead.
The Walk Away — Journal Entries 2023
Ever hear yourself walk away from your body? The first sign of “pitching a pity party” has begun. Howling to your own pack to seek the emotional damages they left. Your scar overwhelms your process of trying to be more socially acceptable during the…
Once It’s Called Again — Journal Entries 2023
When the world is walking into you— your type of emotional response, the mask of resentments— is it the unintentional ignorance of the truth you are masking? Now you’re in a window display for the acts of judgment, set to self-destruct. The daily routine…
Story Line — Journal Entries 2023
Your past leaves scars, dents, scrapes, laughter, and subtle cries. The present teaches lessons, guidance, patience, and practice. The future: your present-day past errors, revisited into a teaching lesson— some kind of new emotional or physical…
Dear Father — Journal Entries 2023
Father, you raised me when Mother wasn’t present—gave me a childhood, a home, food on my plate, and clothes on my back, morning, noon, and night. Dear Father, I am haunted by the pain you put on me. I created outbursts because you always kept me locked…
A Traumatized Mind — Journal Entries 2023
The unwillingness they face. A feeling of emptiness, a feeling of never trusting. This traumatized mindset should rest now; today isn’t his death day. This so-called life change of happy highs and lower endings— destroying your own mentality for a day’s…
Someone Took Away My Self-Worth — Journal Entries 2023
Intimacy was not consented. You just became the victim of an already harder journey. A damaged setting. Fuck, man. Turn away from him—his voice, face, and eyes carry weakness. He hasn’t seen himself. He avoids the mirrors he comes across. Fuck, man.…
As I start to reflect on my past, — An Inconvenient Attachment
As I start to reflect on my past, ruining a day’s worth of energy, my mind is full of regrets. Emotional battles, fears of nothing ahead. Unnecessary dwelling nerves the mind into thinking of what could happen. It’s…
I sit here, jotting down thoughts — An Inconvenient Attachment
I sit here, jotting down thoughts about someone who is in my everyday thoughts. I keep forgetting the life I have now is much better without you. As you rise from someone after an endless cycle of abuse, it makes you feel…